journal

11/28/2019

mikey is making me a cassette and sending me a cassette player.
he told me hes in love with me tonight.
it's such an easy thing to say...i could say it.
i could make all the right noises and push it out of my mouth
and it would be true.
but i am guarded. guarded like a castle that's seen too many battles.
so i'll keep quiet. for now.

11/27/2019

you made me whole again and now you're gone.

11/17/2019

being alone is okay

11/07/2019

an entire month has gone by and i haven't gotten any better!
i'm constsntly reminded that i just can't connect with other people.
why cant i maintain meaningful relationships?

10/07/2019

why did u lie
why why why you fucking liar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!